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I haven't posted a blog post in a while, but I suppose it's time to throw some stuff out there. Let's be real, the side I present on Facebook isn't the full details of my life. It's mostly the fun stuff; a more ideal portrait of my life. Don't tell me you haven't done it too. We all have junk in our lives, but we choose to share just the good parts of life with our friends, sharing the crap with no one or if we're lucky, with our close friends. I'm not down with that anymore. It's time for full disclosure. No more hiding behind the veil of Facebook. I'm gonna put some stuff out there.
First off, I have a Mechanical Engineering degree. And I'm living paycheck to paycheck. That whole "Engineers are in high demand," shtick is a load of BS. I had two jobs, one at Disneyland which I love, (still do, as I still have that one) and a teaching job which I felt I should have loved but didn't. Anyways, the teaching job, which was the bulk of my income, is gone. School went under, nothing was my fault, but still, I'm down one job. And I'm job hunting again. No one knows my history with job hunting, but I have spent so much of my life doing it, I absolutely abhor it. I've spent four entire summers of my life job hunting as well as various other periods. I HATE it with every fiber of my being. Yet God has me here again. Really, God?
Second, I live in my car. Have for a month. I engineered it a bit better, and it was supposed to be a short term thing, but it's gotten a bit longer. I'm hoping to move in with a friend in about a week, but until then, here I am. Living in your car is not that bad...at first. Then it gets worse...and worse...and soon you want out. Then you lose a job, and it's back to the car...
Anyways, those are the two things I wasn't sharing with all of Facebook. Now I don't care. Also, don't give me the "Poor Nate..." lines. I don't need your pity. God has surprisingly given me a large enough measure of contentment for where I'm at. And He continues to provide what I need. He always will. So, here I am, in a situation that the world, and probably you, find pretty terrible. But I'm okay. I'm content. Am I entirely thrilled about the situation? No. Do I sometimes put on a face that says I'm happier than I really am? Yes. But am I content; am I okay? Yes. I'll make it. And I thank God every day for his contentment and peace, and pray for a larger measure of both.
One last thing: Don't judge me for this and think I'm a loser, a slacker, lazy, etc. I can assure you, I'm none of the above. Me and God just had a chat a while ago, and we both agreed I didn't want a normal life, cubicle job, 2.5 kids and a house in the suburbs. I wanted, and still want an adventure! God said okay, and little did I know what that entailed. Just know, as hard as this gets, and as crappy as it may be sometimes, I'd rather be living this life than the "American Dream."
Matthew 6:26-27 "Look at the birds of the air. They do not sow or reap or stow away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you, by worrying, can add a single hour to his life?"
